Enough is enough - and you feel that you’ve had enough for a while. You don’t need any more battles. You just would like to be able to shout ‘stop’ and experience a little peace and calm - even if it be only for a little while. This doesn’t mean that you need to cut yourself off from the rest of the world - it just means that you are seeking some respite, some physical or emotional relaxation that could release some of the the tension and possibly reduce the internal conflict.
You are totally dissatisfied with your present situation. Matters are not going right for you and you are seeking a means of escape. Your mental state of mind necessitates that you need to change your thinking patterns. Remember, if one particular modus operandi doesn’t seem to work, then try something different.
You are not an argumentative sort of person and ‘rather than fight - you’d switch’ (an old cigarette ad cliche). But when you try to assert yourself - as sometimes you may try to do - you meet with so much resistance and effrontery that manifests itself so obviously that you become hurt, indignant and resentful. So in order to have peace and quiet you tend to become inhibited. You keep it all to yourself but deep down, you ‘feel’ and ‘hurt’ a lot.
Recent disappointment has led you to become truly introverted. You are becoming suspicious of everybody and consequently you now feel that you are unable to trust anybody. Unfortunately it would appear that you are curbing your natural enthusiasm and imaginative nature - perhaps this is because you are fearful that you may become over enthused and find that you could possibly be carried away by wishful thinking. You are keeping your distance to see whether attitudes towards you are sincere - but this watchfulness could easily develop into suspicion and distrust.
You wish to safeguard yourself against criticism or conflict and to embed yourself in a protected situation. You are a difficult person to relate to and very difficult to please.
Cleaning snow off your car to drive to work: 20 minutes
Driving slowly to avoid idiots who can’t drive in snow: 1 hour
Trying not to fall on your ass while walking to the building: 15 minutes
Getting a call not to come in because of the snow: 3 minutes of happy dance